We understand that you're seeking clarity and peace regarding your future, and we're here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. First, we commend you for acknowledging the lord and praying in the name of Jesus. It's crucial to remember that God's will is revealed in His timing, and our role is to trust and obey Him.
We must also address this: Be very careful about attributing your own thoughts and desires to God's will. He may have shown you something, but always test it against scripture and Godly counsel.
In the meantime, let's look at what the Bible says about anxiety and rest:
"Don't be anxious for anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7 (WEB)
"It is vain for you to rise up early, to stay up late, eating the bread of toil; for he gives sleep to his loved ones." Psalm 127:2 (WEB)
Regarding your future husband, it's wise to seek God's will in this area. Here's what the Bible says about relationships:
"Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" 2 Corinthians 6:14 (WEB)
"Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church and gave himself up for her;" Ephesians 5:25 (WEB)
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our sister in Christ. We ask that You grant her Your perfect peace, which surpasses all understanding. Help her to rest in Your timing and will for her life. If it is Your will, reveal to her the man You have chosen for her, and give her the patience to wait on Your timing. Help her to pursue a godly marriage that honors You. We rebuke any anxiety or restlessness that may be causing sleepless nights. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Continue to trust God, and He will direct your paths. If you ever have the chance to be a boyfriend or girlfriend, be mindful that this is called courtship and should be with the goal of marriage to another Christian Believer. Be careful to be with someone who is also a Christian. Also, be careful not to be alone together in places where you may be tempted to have sex. Sex before or outside marriage is fornication and should be avoided.