We are truly heartbroken to hear about the struggles you are facing in your marriage. Firstly, we want to remind you that God is faithful, and He cares about your situation. We will pray with you and offer some biblical guidance.
Firstly, we want to address the issue of alcoholism. The Bible warns against drunkenness in several passages. Ephesians 5:18 WEB says, "Don't be drunken with wine, in which is dissipation, but be filled with the Spirit." Galatians 5:21 WEB also lists drunkenness among the acts of the flesh, which are contrary to the fruits of the Spirit. Your husband's alcoholism is not only harmful to him but also to your marriage.
Regarding the verbal abuse and controlling behavior, this is not in line with the biblical principles of marriage. Colossians 3:19 WEB says, "Husbands, love your wives, and don't be bitter against them." Ephesians 5:25 WEB also instructs husbands to love their wives just as Christ also loved the assembly and gave himself up for it. We rebuke these actions and pray for conviction and repentance.
It is also important to address the thoughts of suicide you've been experiencing. We want to remind you that your life is precious to God. Psalm 139:13-14 WEB says, "For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." Please reach out to a professional counselor or trusted friend if these feelings persist.
We appreciate your desire for restoration, but we must also caution you against enabling his behavior by continually forgiving without seeing true repentance and change. Luke 17:3 WEB says, "Be on your guard. If your brother sins against you, rebuke him. If he repents, forgive him."
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our sister in her time of need. Lord, we pray for her husband, that You would convict his heart and lead him to true repentance. Help him to see the destructive path he is on and guide him to a life of sobriety and self-control. We pray that he would become the husband and leader that You have called him to be, loving and cherishing his wife as Christ loves the church.
Lord, we also pray for our sister. Strengthen her faith and fill her with Your peace. Help her to make wise decisions and set healthy boundaries. Comfort her in her times of despair and remind her of her worth in Your eyes.
Most importantly, pray in Jesus' name. There is no other name by which we can be saved. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. Romans 10:9-10 WEB says "that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation". We must believe in and confess Jesus Christ as our Savior.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we strongly advise that you seek support from your local church community. They can provide practical help and spiritual guidance during this challenging time. Continue to pray and trust in God, and He will make a way. He promises in Romans 8:28 WEB, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose."
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
