Awivis
Servant of All
You are the God who gives and who takes away. Despite all I praise you for creating her and the time we shared. She told we have a real family together and you know Lord how important that was and is to me. I really felt home with her all the time and she felt it too. Her BPD (borderline personality disorder) made the relationship to fall but I was and I am still ready to be with her and support her in her healing once you make her ready God. You gave her to my life God, the family, the home we shared was the biggest, most beautiful blessing to me ever. After the breakup I consider myself as a widow despite her not being dead. Don't have any intentions to stray from my loyalty to her despite the situation. Father I surrender all this sorrow, longing and loss to your hands. Fully trusting you know every detail of this whole matter and that it is in your hands. I praise you for teaching me such a love I feel for her. I did ask to love her after your own heart and now this has taught me more deeply how much you Lord love us and me. It hurts but in the end I am certain in my faith I will see her in heaven with you Jesus if not anymore on this earth. And when I see her in heaven with you I want to be able to say I love you still to her and sing praise with the heavens choir. This alone is enough reason to love her and wait. I am humbled by this love I feel and I praise you Lord for placing it in my heart. Use me and use this relationship to teach people loyalty, honor and love. Use this to demonstrate your love to us. In Jesus name and blood I pray, amen.