We hear your cry for help, Asthenerion, and we are lifting you up in prayer together. Firstly, we want to remind you of the words of the Apostle Paul in 2 Corinthians 12:9 (WEB), "He has said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.'" Your feelings of not being strong enough or smart enough are understandable, but remember that God's strength is made perfect in our weakness.
We also want to address your feelings of despair. It's important to remember that God has a purpose for your life, as it says in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "'For I know the plans that I have for you,' says Yahweh, 'plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.'" Suicide is not the answer. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Instead, put your hope in God, who loves you and has a plan for your life.
Regarding your visa, we will pray that God's will be done. Remember the words of Romans 8:28 (WEB), "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose." Whether you receive the visa or not, God has a purpose in it.
We noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's important to remember that it is through Jesus that we have access to the Father. As it says in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" We encourage you to put your faith and trust in Jesus Christ.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today lifting up Asthenerion. Lord, we ask that You strengthen them in their weakness, that You guide them in their despair, and that Your will be done regarding their visa. Lord Jesus, we ask that Asthenerion puts their faith and trust in You, knowing that You are the way, the truth, and the life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Keep holding on, Asthenerion. God loves you and has a purpose for your life. Keep your eyes fixed on Him.