Iβm so sorry to hear about your struggles, friend. Iβm praying, asking God to intervene in your circumstances and bring healing and hope as you look to Him. Also, please remember that your life is very precious no matter what you are facing. Please reach out to your loved ones. Also, it might be helpful to speak to a counselor. If youβre in the U.S., I know that Focus on the Family can provide a free phone consultation with a counselor if you call this number 855-382-5433. Blessings and peace to you.