Positive Updates And In Need Of Prayers For Reconciliation And Freedom From Addiction And Healing

[Fos3050]

Although I have prayed for adam to open the doors of communication with me, I still haven't heard from him. But I've also decided not to contact him for a week or so. So he has time to think and have space. I have been desperately been praying for our relationship to be restored, reconciled, and renewed, but that hasn't happened. Yet! I am fully confident that God is working his miracles and that on his time table it will happen. Praise to you Lord Jesus Christ!

I do have some positives to share that let me know he is working towards it. I have a calm confident feeling over me. The doubt is almost gone, very very minimal. Only in times where I think of good times with Adam and then I fear for a second but am reminded that that is the devil trying to sway me. And I am a child of God and he cannot make me doubt my Saviour. God always prevails and proves to me over and over again he works for my good.

Along with a more calm and confident feeling, something came over me that made me reach out to close friends and family members whom bridges were burned or feelings were hurt. I heard God say to me, how can I restore this relationship if you can't restore relationships of your past. It really hit me and suddenly whatever grudges, hurt feelings, or anger I had towards a few family members and lost friends disappeared. I reached out to each one of them and told them all how I would like to make amends and I'm sorry for any wrong doings or hurt I have committed towards them. All but one were receptive and it felt so good to talk with each one of them.

The other night I had was having a really hard time. I cried out to God telling him I need someone to help me, talk with me, and help me work through my loneliness and sadness for the moment. This was about ten at night. About a year ago, I signed up for group emails from a pastor who teaches lessons on God and of God and who helps to teach us to build our relationship with God. Typically she sends the emails early in the day. But I cried out to God for someone to talk with me. Within 5 minutes I had an email from this pastor with a very short message unlike the others and message at the bottom to personally email her it Id like to talk! Sure enough I did. She gave me a few passages to read. One of which was of 1 Peter 5;8-9. If you read it talks about the devil prowling around waiting to devour us. Trying to make us doubt and worry and then latch on and work his evil ways. It said to be smart and be alert. I felt immediately better. I knew I was letting him get to me and so I prayed. The next day, I have an app on my phone of the bible. It gives random daily verses. Very random and no rhyme or reason for the order. Sure enough that next morning was the verse from Peter that the pastor had sent me the night before. The devil must have been working hard that night but my God works harder!

I also asked God for a sign to know he was working on my requests, something to give me a boost and to keep on trucking. I bought some audiobooks on codependcy to listen to to and from work. Today I put the first one on. It was a disc that talked about a new year and new beginning starting with January. Each day of the month it gave a new lesson and goal to work on. Rewind just a bit, but on January 16th, Adam and I had our big right and the communication ended and our relationship did too. On the disc when it got to January 16th, it was a whole lesson on asking God for our needs and wants. That nothing can be accomplished without him. That if we talk to him he listens and helps us fulfill our prayers. It was just the reassurance I needed.

I have been so stuck on trying again and apologizing to adam for my codepenent behaviors that pushed him away, that I realized I need to reconcile with God first. On Tuesday I scheduled a meeting with my priest to reconcile my sins and repent. I am really excited to be washed free on Tuesday and to start again and become even closer in my relationship with God.

I know he hears me. I know he will provide for me when the time is right. I've casted my worries to him and turned Adams heart over to him as well.

Please I ask that you continue to pray for the opening of communication between adam and I.

Pray for the restoration and reconciliation of adam and my relationship to better than before.

Pray that God changes his heart for the betterment of our relationship and selves to better serve God as a couple.

Please pray for my mom and her healing. Pray to have her addictions defeated.

Please pray for my progress and healing with my counselor so that I can overcome my codependency and am able to have a healthy God driven relarionship with adam, my family and friends.

Thank you all so much. It means so much to me.

God bless!

I hope my short stories help in reaffirming how great our God really is.

 

[caldoug]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Saraha]

God bless you as I will pray for you in Jesus name and loving heart. May He watch over you and help you with the prayers you are asking for. Praise God. Jesus love all of us. Amen

 

[dcrandjr]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[stray child]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name.

Appreciate you sharing your story.

 

[Fos3050]

Happy to share the works of God to help others on their journeys.

 

[MerciMe]

Trust in the Lord. Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth. If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sits on the right hand of God. Col.3:1-2

Father, I will go to Your secret place and bow my knee. I know You will meet me there. I bring others with me, Lord, that are on my heart and mind. I lift them up to You and I humble myself as I cast the care of them upon You as Your Word says for me to do. I need wisdom to walk through this day and I need Your strength. Thank You, that You have promised to give me wisdom liberally and that You said that in my weakness You are strong. I claim and proclaim Your promises and I pray all these things in the precious name of Jesus Christ my Lord. Amen

Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusts in Thee. Isaiah 26:3

 

[hisfaceiseek]

Father God, Holy is your name. I stand in agreement with this prayer. In Jesus name, Amen

 

[Fos3050]

I also have another update from mass today. As I have stated before, my mom is an addict. Just recently after having back surgeries for three years. Unknowingly I had much anger, hurt, anxiety, fear, and frustration from this. These demons of mine caused me to try to control adam in our relationship because I couldn't control my mom or the situation, it blocked me from letting love in, in fear of losing it or losing adam. I was used to chaos and fighting for years with my mom so in my relationship with Adam, I created fights to spike emotion in me.

Today in mass, Father spoke about a mom and dad who had a daughter admitted to the hospital for brain damage after a wreck of some sort. The doctor firmly told them that there was not much more they could do for the girl and the damage was permanent. Out of frustration for the lack of progress in their daughter, they began taking it out on the medical staff complaining about the heat, the lighting, anything they could cause a fuss over. To the point where it got so bad the doctor spoke to them. The father broke into tears. He didn't realize that he was taking his frustrations from his daughter out on the staff. The doctor resembles God in our lives showing us the resolution and helping to free us from our demons. This resonated with me because like the father taking his frustrations out on someone else, I have taken my frustrations out on Adam. As I mentioned before I prayed for almost three years for a guy like Adam. And even though this lesson to me is painful, I am thankful for it. If God did not bring Adam into my life, our fight and break up may have never let me realize how much I have internalized my moms substance abuse and dysfunction. I would never have turned to a counselor or have known what I needed to fix. I would never have grown more as a child of God.

I still pray that Adam opens the doors of communication with me to explain to him exactly why I have been the way I have been. To apologize and to let him know I have been working at it. I pray that God can erase the bitterness and anger in his heart to me and that he sees in me the good and a reason to try and reconcile our relationship. I pray to repair and heal this relationship. Please pray along for us.

These are my demons that God has brought to the light and cast out of me. I feel so much closer to God, happier, and healthier.

Thank you for taking the time to read and supporting me on my journey and praying for with me. God bless you.

Father please help this good hearted people in their needs today and every day. I ask this in your name, Amen!

 

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