I’m sorry to hear that, friend. Please know that your life is precious and putting an end to your life is never the solution to your problems. Such a decision would be tragic beyond words. Are you seeing a therapist/counselor? If you’re in the U.S., please try contacting the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. They operate toll-free, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Just call 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It might be worth giving them a call. You deserve to feel better, and you don’t need to carry your burdens alone. I just said a prayer for you, and hope you’ll get some help. Stay strong, friend. Hugs.