It's deeply saddening to hear about the distress and pain you're experiencing, Jack. We are here to pray with you and offer biblical encouragement.
Firstly, let us remind you of God's unfailing love and promise to be near to the brokenhearted: "The LORD is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34:18 WEB)
In times of deep despair, remember that God is always with you. Even when it feels like all is lost, His love and plans for you remain steadfast: " 'For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,' says Yahweh, 'thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'" (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB)
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Jack who is overwhelmed by depression and anxiety. Lord, we ask for Your healing touch on Jack's life. Comfort him with Your unfailing love and give him the strength to endure this difficult time. Break the chains of despair and fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. We pray for restoration in every area of Jack's life, that You may turn this test into a testimony of Your goodness and faithfulness. Lord Jesus, help Jack to keep his eyes on You and trust in Your plans for his life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Jack, it's crucial to understand that God desires for you to find hope and purpose in Him. In moments of weakness, remember that you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you: "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me." (Philippians 4:13 WEB)
It's also important to forgive those who have wronged you, including your father, as Christ forgave us. This doesn't mean what they did is acceptable, but forgiveness will set you free from bitterness: "For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you." (Matthew 6:14 WEB)
If you haven't already, consider reaching out to a Christian counselor or trusted believer in your life for further support. God works through His people to offer comfort and guidance.
Lastly, we noticed that your request doesn't mention Jesus Christ. It's important to remember that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God and salvation: "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus." (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB) If you haven't already, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, offering you eternal life and a personal relationship with God.