We are truly saddened to hear about the pain and rejection you have experienced, and we stand with you in the mighty name of Jesus Christ. Firstly that is the only name we can come to God the Father by. There is no other name and it is only by believing in Jesus that we can be saved.
First, it's important to address the issue of curses. According to the Bible, a person who loves Jesus Christ cannot have a curse. As it is written in Galatians 3:13 WEB: "Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law, having become a curse for us. For it is written, 'Cursed is everyone who hangs on a tree.'" Jesus has set us free from all curses, as it is also mentioned "There is therefore now no condemnation/curse to those who are in Christ Jesus" in Romans 8:1, "who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit." To walk after the flesh is to deliberately live in sin.
Now, regarding the pain and rejection you've experienced from what your family has supported, unfortunately. It is not God's will for you to lead a loveless existence. God wants you to know that you are deeply loved and valued by Him. Consider Jesus's promise in John 14:18 WEB where He said you would not be an orphan, He will come to you. In Psalm 68:5-6
A father of the fatherless, and a defender of the widows, is God in his holy habitation. God sets the lonely in families, he brings out the prisoners with singing, but the rebellious dwell in a sun-scorched land.
Your earthly family may have failed you, but your heavenly Father loves you deeply and has been there by your side through the heartbreak. He wants you to experience restoration and fulfillment in your life. The restoration can still come.
It is interesting that you think you cannot have children and have never had an official committed relationship. We are not so sure about either. If you have not yet physically checked with a doctor then you are simply saying something you have made yourself believe and this is not a good thing. You are specifically saying a negative declaration about your life that you do not even know if you have a physical issue. Beside that, there are other options in having children. Also, it is not too late to have an official committed relationship. The modern day word is partner and boyfriend, but that is not how Christians should consider this. Two people should meet and consider being married. They should work on having a Christian Godly marriage. This is a suitable spouse. This should be your goal and what you should be praying for.
In regards to romantic love, it's important to remember that God's timing is perfect. You may feel that you are too old at 50, but the Lord has not forgotten about you. Let us meditate on 1 Corinthians 7:34-35 WEB because it is good thing to be free of concerns about getting a spouse so that we can serve God effectively.
there is also a difference between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman cares about the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit. But she who is married cares about the things of the world—how she may please her husband. This I say for your own profit; not that I may cast a snare on you, but for that which is decent, and that you may attend on the Lord without distraction.
If two Christians find themselves in a relationship of a Biblical relationship, one that wants marriage for the proper Biblical reasons, then let them marry. Otherwise, celebrating being single is as good a thing. A useful and meaningful life can be lived joyfully in a single state with God. The love we are also to seek is of a non-romantic type and is to be unconditional, pure and not self seeking.
Romantic love is supposed to only be in marriage. If the love is not within a proper Biblical marriage and with someone that believes in Jesus then it is a form of lust. If people think they are in romantic love and not in marriage then they are likely to discover their romantic feelings were sexual wants. Relationships outside marriage are frowned upon by the Bible and marriages are supposed to be monogamous between a man and a woman in a lifelong covenant with God.
Hebrews 13:5 WEB Be free from the love of money, content with such things as you have, for he has said, "I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you."
It has been said that "The married couple has everything in common, including their troubles." In Matthew 6:34 it is written, "Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient." Anxiousness about a spouse and money is a distraction. If you desire to marry, then you should work on yourself so you can be enticing to a spouse, pray for an opportunity, put yourself in the right spot for the opportunity and then be at peace about it.
Deuteronomy 32:30 WEB: How should one chase a thousand, and two put ten thousand to flight, except their Rock had sold them, and Yahweh had delivered them up?
The Scriptures include many examples of people who found love later in life, such as Isaac and Rebekah in Genesis 24, or Ruth and Boaz in the book of Ruth. Remember, God honors his promises. If you are thus far pure from sexual relationships outside marriage that is a testament to your terms of honor before God and worth a treasure.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father
Thank you for the love you have meant for You are a good and loving Father, and we know Anonymous has been blessed with great value in your presence and that she is they are deeply loved by You. We also felt the sadness that was felt for them feeling they were cursed. We now believe that they are not cursed, but blessed. Please create a deep awakening in Anonymous of the presence of your Spirit that is deeply within. We pray that they fully come to receive Jesus as Lord and Saviour by their own free will.
We are so sorry that they have felt the burden of rejection that they do no deserve. Forgive us for this, as we know you have forgiven so many. Though parents and family may have failed her we know that You Lord Jesus have not failed, and You have a good wonderful plan for this life. We are the new humanity and partaker of the divine nature on earth by the blood. We pray Anonymous rises to the self awareness of that nature.
Thank you for reaffirming that it is never too late for Anonymous to experience Love as You intended. We pray for strength to seek you first in all walks. May you grant first and foremost an experience of your love that surpasses any other feelings that are nice. We know that love is patient and kind, and we are certain that a spouse will show that fruit. We now pray that all despair would be but a fleeting memory of suffering but an opportunity for enlightenment as you show yourself to be the true source of hope. This life is to be a successful and rewarding one that is prosperous in every good way with all the peace and joy that are available to those who know Jesus.
We pray for a life filled with love and blessings for their sake and in Jesus' name. We believe that we receive according to John 14:14:If you ask anything in my (That is Jesus's) name, I will be doing it.
So now we ask you to intervene with this cycle of feelings of rejection and that they would shine to the world your light and love. We believe you have already provided the abundance this life needs. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen