Iβm sorry to hear about the struggles you are facing. Iβm praying for Godβs intervention, strength and help in a powerful way. Also, it might be helpful to speak to a counselor. If youβre in the U.S., I know that Focus on the Family can provide a free phone consultation with a licensed counselor if you call this number 855-382-5433. Blessings and peace to you, friend.