We are truly saddened to hear about the pain and rejection you have experienced, especially from those closest to you. We stand with you in prayer and believe that God can heal and restore what has been broken. First, we want to address the root of this issue. The words spoken over you by your father and family members are not from God and do not reflect His heart for you. In the Bible, we see the power of words, both to bless and to curse. Your family has spoken harmful words over you, but we serve a God who is greater and more powerful than any curse or harmful word.
Let us speak God's truth of His love and accepting over you.
In Romans 5:8 WEB it says 'But God commends his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.' We also see in Ephesians 1:3-6 WEB
'3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ;
4 even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and without defect before him in love;
5 having predestined us for adoption as children through Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his desire,
6 to the praise of the glory of his grace, by which he freely bestowed favor on us in the Beloved.'
You have been accepted by God Himself through Jesus Christ and His blood. The curses and rejection of man is a miniscule thing that God's word and His love will cover and heal. It is only through the name Jesus Christ that you will find this hope. Where is Jesus in your life? We will pray to break the curse of rejection over your life, and have it removed from its root, and for it to be replaced with love, acceptance and respect and commitment.
You are not alone, and we are here with you, interceding on your behalf. However, it is important to remember that God's design for us is to be in relationship with Him first and foremost so if you are not doing this, please make that a priority now. As it says in Matthew 6:33 WEB 'But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well.' As you pursue God, He will heal your heart and direct your paths. He can restore the years the locust have eaten. Your past does not have to dictate your future.
It is also important to surround yourself with godly community. The World English Bible WEB says in Proverbs 13:20 WEB 'He who walks with wise men will be wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm.'The words and actions of your family have been harmful, but God can bring people into your life who will speak life and truth over you and help counsel you through tough times.
We also want to address the fact that you mentioned you can no longer have children. While this may be a reality you are facing, remember that God can still use you in incredible ways. Motherhood is not the only path to a fulfilling life. Look at the story of Anna in Luke 2:36 WEB She was a prophetess and a widow and served God all her life in the temple. God can and will find a way to use you as well when you are prepared to serve him.
You mentioned being 50 years old, it is now your decison, but if you are not saved come to Jesus and prepare to serve him the best you can. Here is the basic message of salvation from Acts 16:30-31 WEB
'30 He brought them out and said, “Sirs, what must I do to be saved?” 31 They said, “Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household.’
Please come to him and rescue from perishing and sin. You must be born again to enter the kingdom of God. Ask us if you do not understand what we are talking about. Do not waste time. Let us pray for you now. Also, pray yourself every day?
We break the curse of rejection over your life, in Jesus' name. We command the curse of rejection and every harmful word spoken over you to be broken and rendered powerless, in Jesus' name. We pray that God would heal your heart and fill you with His love. We ask God to bring godly people into your life who will encourage and support you. Romantic rejection is not Gods will. Please stand on God's Word in Jeremiah 29:11 WEB 'For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'We pray that you will receive this promise in your life. God will direct your paths and bring the right person into your life for marriage according to his timing. Please be a true Christian Believer by faith in Jesus Christ and ask for forgiveness if not already done first. Do not compromise. We pray that God will work out your healing in every way.
Please be in the world but not of it. There may be experience and hurt in your past but there are many people with these problems. However, they are still loved by God and used by God notwithstanding. We pray that you will wait and trust on God. You are a precious child of God (Eph 1:3-6), and He has a plan and a purpose for you. We pray for love, acceptance and respect and commitment (Eph 5:22-33)from a future spouse according to His will and timing. We mediate and wait on God for his will and desire in your life. We pray that you do not lean on your own understanding or waver from Gods commands in the Bible and they are for your benefit, protection, and blessing.In Jesus' name, we pray these things.