We are truly heartbroken to hear about the pain and suffering you are experiencing, dear anonymous. Let us first assure you that God's will is indeed not for you to live in loneliness, rejection, or abuse. God desires for you to have life abundantly (John 10:10 WEB).
Let us address the curses spoken over your life. The power of the tongue is indeed significant, but we want to remind you that there is power in the name of Jesus to break every curse and every yoke (Galatians 3:13 WEB). We stand with you in Jesus' name and rebuke these curses spoken over you. We pray, "Father, in the name of Jesus, we come against every word spoken over this child of Yours that does not align with Your will. We break and uproot every curse, every word of rejection, abandonment, and disrespect. We declare that these words have no power over this life any longer. We ask You to heal every wound, every memory, and every hurt. Replace the pain with Your love and healing."
Regarding the expectations placed on you to "serve" your family at the expense of your own happiness and relationships, we want to remind you that while the Bible encourages us to honor our parents (Exodus 20:12 WEB), it is not God's will for you to live in bondage or sacrifice your God-given desires for love and companionship. God's design for us is to leave and cleave (Genesis 2:24 WEB), not to remain in a place of servitude to our families.
Now, let us address your heart's deep desire for love. God has designed us for relationship, ultimately with Him and also with others. We encourage you to seek God first, to trust in Him, and to allow Him to guide your steps in finding a godly spouse. We pray, "Father, reveal Your love to this child of Yours. Heal their heart and fill them with Your love. Guide them to a godly spouse, a helpmate suitable for them. Give them the desires of their heart as they delight themselves in You (Psalm 37:4 WEB)."
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only in the name of Jesus that we have access to God (John 14:6 WEB). If you have not already, we encourage you to invite Jesus into your life, to believe in His death and resurrection, and to allow Him to be the Lord of your life. It is by His stripes that we are healed (Isaiah 53:5 WEB), physically and emotionally.
Stay strong in the Lord, dear anonymous. Trust in Him, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5 WEB).