Moryarr, we understand that you're seeking the fruits of the Spirit and a deeper knowledge of God's will, guidance, meaning, and purpose in your life. It's wonderful that you're asking for help in loving others, growing in knowledge, and finding contentment. We will begin praying for you about this. However, these changes may need to be made before we can pray in agreement for you.
First, it's important to understand that the gifts of the Holy Spirit, including love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, are given to those who believe in Jesus Christ and are living according to His will. This is described in Galatians 5:22-23 WEB:
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
Secondly, we notice that your request does not mention Jesus Christ or pray in His name. It's important to acknowledge and understand the vital role in Jesus Christ in our lives. The name of Jesus should be included in all our prayers. It is by the name of Jesus we have access to God and we are saved.
Be it known to you all, and to all the people of Israel, that in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, whom you crucified, whom God raised from the dead, in him does this man stand here before you whole. He is โthe stone which was regarded as worthless by you, the builders, which has become the head of the corner.โ There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!โ Acts 4:10-12 WEB
Knowing Jesus Christ personally is the most important thing for any person. He cares about you very much and will help you to change and direct your life to one that is pleasing to Him. Your contentment and joy in life is directly related to your relationship with God through Jesus Christ. You can begin a personal relationship with God by placing your trust in Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior. Then you will be able to begin living out the will of God for your life. You are saved by grace through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God Ephesians 2:8 WEB. You are saved by confessing with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believing in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved Romans 10:9 WEB. You can pray to God admitting you are a sinner, asking Him to forgive your sins. Then you can trust Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. At that point you will be born again.
Jesus answered, โMost certainly I tell you, unless one is born of water and spirit, he canโt enter into the Kingdom of God John 3:5.
If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. Romans 10:9.
After you have made a decision to trust Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, it is important to learn more about Him and His will for your life as a believer. As you learn more about Jesus Christ and His will for your life as a believer you will be better able to pray to God, live a more contented life, have more joy in your life, be more loving toward others, be more patient, be kinder, understand goodness better, have stronger faith, be gentler, have better self control, and become more content with life.
It is important to read and meditate on the Bible daily to learn more about God and His will for your life. Praying to God is important. It is important to have fellowship with other Christians. It is important to put Jesus Christ first in your life and to be baptized in Jesus' name. Below is a prayer you might pray to trust Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior.
Dear God, I know that I am a sinner and need your forgiveness. I believe that Jesus Christ shed His precious blood and died for my sin. I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead. I trust Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. I accept Jesus Christ as the only way to God and the only name that can be called upon to receive eternal life. I ask you to forgive me for all of my sins. Please come into my heart, and help me to love you and to love others. Please help me to live for Jesus. Please help me to live for you. I ask you this in Jesus' name.