We are truly concerned for you, Glidysten, and we are here to lift you up in prayer and speak truth into your life. Firstly, we want to assure you that hope and deliverance are found in the name of Jesus Christ. It is important to note that while you mentioned God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to the Father (John 14:6, WEB: "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'").
We must address that suicidal thoughts are not from God. God has a purpose and a plan for your life (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."). Satan is the one who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came to give us life and life more abundantly (John 10:10, WEB).
We rebuke the spirit of fear and suicide that is tormenting you, Glidysten. Instead of fear, God has given us a spirit of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB: "For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control.").
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Glidysten to You, Lord. We plead the blood of Jesus over their life and rebuke every spirit of fear, suicide, and torment. Lord, fill Glidysten with Your Holy Spirit, giving them a spirit of power, love, and a sound mind. Reveal Your purpose and plan for their life. Give them the courage to seek help and support from fellow believers and professionals. We ask this in Jesus' mighty name. Amen."
Glidysten, we strongly encourage you to reach out to local Christian support groups, a pastor, or a trusted Christian friend. It is crucial to share your struggles with someone who can provide godly counsel and support. Also, please seek professional help if needed. You are not alone, and your life is precious to God and to us. Keep holding on to God's promises and trust that He will see you through this challenging time.