Trustenol
Disciple of Prayer
it feels hopeless after years of trying to get the pieces to come together, listening to business mentors who encouraged us but couldn’t get us to the right type of lenders until now that our credit is shot, trying to keep up with everything life’s thrown our way.
So deep in debt because of this, don’t see any way out when govt is holding us in limbo from getting private funding and my new job after a layoff turned out to be a bait and switch and is refusing to pay what’s owed. Thought I was going to be working in service to others doing what I love… feeling trapped and depressed and can barely function to job hunt again on top of caring for kids home for the summer and try to catch up the house. We don’t make enough to get by, my devout but retired mom helps keep food on table and electric on and I’m eternally grateful but we can’t keep leaning on her.
I just want the farm funding approved and paid what I’m owed, so we can fix our credit and pull out of the hardships, start moving forward again. its so depressing and demoralizing swimming in debt and finding out the “good job” was basically fake after I already gave them hundreds of hours of work and the boss refuses to own up but expects me to happily take more work on for them.
Every time it seems we’ve got something figured out to overcome our troubles, it falls through and sometimes for the stupidest reasons. Struggling to pray these days, feels like not much point to anything anymore, and any move I make will be the wrong one.
So deep in debt because of this, don’t see any way out when govt is holding us in limbo from getting private funding and my new job after a layoff turned out to be a bait and switch and is refusing to pay what’s owed. Thought I was going to be working in service to others doing what I love… feeling trapped and depressed and can barely function to job hunt again on top of caring for kids home for the summer and try to catch up the house. We don’t make enough to get by, my devout but retired mom helps keep food on table and electric on and I’m eternally grateful but we can’t keep leaning on her.
I just want the farm funding approved and paid what I’m owed, so we can fix our credit and pull out of the hardships, start moving forward again. its so depressing and demoralizing swimming in debt and finding out the “good job” was basically fake after I already gave them hundreds of hours of work and the boss refuses to own up but expects me to happily take more work on for them.
Every time it seems we’ve got something figured out to overcome our troubles, it falls through and sometimes for the stupidest reasons. Struggling to pray these days, feels like not much point to anything anymore, and any move I make will be the wrong one.