Haversyva
Humble Prayer Partner
Please pray that my family feels more love towards me. Sometimes I feel like I may have gotten adopted or that they didn't want me because they always put me aside, treat me as less, minimize me, don't listen to me, if I try to communicate how I feel or set boundaries they say that I am the problem and act like if I was hurting them by sharing how I feel with how they treat me. I went to a psychologyst a few years ago and he said some of my family members were abusive and appeared to suffer from NPD, while the others enabled their abuse and were adquiring characteristics. He also told me I should leave because I didn't have the issues they have mentally and that since I was the one aware of the abuse they will always treat me as the scapegoat. And it has been true, that and alot of other things the psychologist told me. I am tired of being treated like the scapegoat while they pretend to not be abusive and also while they literally they they will not change because they aren't the problem and that people are just trying to convince them that they need help (which they do) but that they don't. That everyone else is the problem except them. They also harm other people alot. Manipulate them, use them, and blame them for it. Please pray for my family. Also that I can get hte job I am applying for and move out because it's too much abuse and I don't want to be the scapegoat anymore. I want to surround myself with real loving people that see me as I am and not blame me for their own ugly behaviors. I love my family, but it's all drowning me and at times makes me feel suicidal. I wish I had a group of friends that I could call my family who could support me but I am by myself. I got God which I am grateful, he is all I need.