Pleoniotes
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray that I receive death. Without a soul. I don't want any part of this spiritual-warfare game between God and and satan that I was placed into. This life of mine and terrible world as it is, makes the love story spoken of in the New Testament seem like a cheap, meaningless love story. There is too much confusion, lost time, and unfulfillment in my life. Too many bad/negative people keep getting thrown my way. At church, by phone, or elsewhere. They keep finding me and saying and doing things that irritate me. Like for example some man at church blowing me off after putting hands on co-worker of his in church and praying for him. Not saying a word to me, despite we having me a certain point in the past and he had a friendly demeanor then. He stared me down with this harsh look on his face as he walked towards the doors and out of the church, as if I were not the prized, valued creature of the God he claimed to follow. Another person over there reffered to me as a "frail old man" for no reason whatsoever. I'm nearly 30 years old and I live with no sense of purpose or direction in my life. I have a condition of the mind that needs to be taken away and I start functioning the way most others function. I need the physical strength, mental strength, and mental capacity to make it out in this world. Before it is too late. Since the Lord put a time-bomb of that is aging and the wear, tear, and degeneration that comes with it. I also have a problem with lust, for an ingrained, biological attraction to women that can't/won't be removed. THX
