Sometimes it is hard for me to describe the internal problems I feel. Satan probably attacks me because I have some weak spots, of hurt in me.
I have problems with jealousy and envy. There is good reason for this. My whole life I've been on the bottom. I see people doing things that just doesn't seem fair.
Speaking from a Christian point of view. I get jealous and envious of other Christians. There are several ways that I feel this way:
1) Christians who are positive and joyful. It is a real struggle for me to be a janitor working a 2nd shift job, cleaning up the stuff I got to clean up, and living a very lonely life all the time, to find that positive and joyfulness. I am told that I should be joyful, and be joyful in all situations. It feels like I can't do it.
2) Christians that are being used by God to do things that help others. I try to be as helpful as I can, but I'm very very limited in what I can do. I don't even know if the little I have done has done any good or not. Maybe it would be best if I just always kept my mouth shut. That is literally how I feel.
I believe that Jesus can fix a person's heart. It is through His power that we grow and get better. I just wish He would fix my heart in these places. If it isn't heart problem then I wish He would fix my emotions because feeling like this hurts.
I have problems with jealousy and envy. There is good reason for this. My whole life I've been on the bottom. I see people doing things that just doesn't seem fair.
Speaking from a Christian point of view. I get jealous and envious of other Christians. There are several ways that I feel this way:
1) Christians who are positive and joyful. It is a real struggle for me to be a janitor working a 2nd shift job, cleaning up the stuff I got to clean up, and living a very lonely life all the time, to find that positive and joyfulness. I am told that I should be joyful, and be joyful in all situations. It feels like I can't do it.
2) Christians that are being used by God to do things that help others. I try to be as helpful as I can, but I'm very very limited in what I can do. I don't even know if the little I have done has done any good or not. Maybe it would be best if I just always kept my mouth shut. That is literally how I feel.
I believe that Jesus can fix a person's heart. It is through His power that we grow and get better. I just wish He would fix my heart in these places. If it isn't heart problem then I wish He would fix my emotions because feeling like this hurts.