Anonymous
Beloved of All
Most of my life has been horrible for almost 50 years. I have been alone band lonely all my life people thought I was friends with are not my friends. I have family estrangement with almost everyone I try hard to get along with my family they don't get along with me they act like I am a bad person because they think I am lazy . Everything goes good then it goes bad someone I love is out of my life it goes bad permanently. I am alone and lonely all of my life no friends or a spouse because I am shy . I been excluded even by family. When I was living with my brother he treated me horrible and excluded me and he used to fight with his least favorite son everyday talk bad about him and me . He favorite his young child over me . And my family play favoritism and I was nobody's favorite . 2021 was the worst year of my life my brother excluded me talked bad about me and made me cry and blame me for my mother's passing. I have been going through something traumatic. When I lived with my other brother there was arguments with my brother wife and my brother daughter favorite the youngest kid over her . And with them fighting I have flashbacks with fighting with my mom my mom and I used to fight all day everyday. And my sister and law got irritated with me because I can't find a job so she have me to live with a roommate who uses me for money my money from social security is gone . And my brother is lecturing me because I can't find a job either I get rejected or ghosted and I call places and they say they are not hiring and job coach are no help and the job coach I had in the past are no help. And I had a cat went missing and I never found her again and I can't get another cat until I find my own place. My family always excluded me and I am alone and lonely I have no support system and I have thought about ending my life and commit suicide I am mentally tired and nobody cares and I am stressed out all day everyday and I can't sleep at night . I have been mistreated by everyone even my roommate who treated to kick me out for not cleaning up the house when I do . Please pray that God and Jesus takes away my pain and pray that God bless us all of what we need in Jesus name Amen .