Arrilic
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray that all of my prayers will be answered today, I need alot of protection prayers and I've been going through a living nightmare like a living hell for 41 years I keep thinking that God loves me but I keep getting put down and insulted , sometimes hurt and I get sick from useing drugs everyday, I have a hole in my belly that causes me very bad panic attacks and anxiety from someone hurting me when I was a kid abuse is what they did too sexual abuse but they hurt my stomach and I didn't know I was abused untill my my brains and eyes so to speak fell into my stomach and or my balls having a extremely bad panic attack in jail for no reason and I was labeled as a rat when I wasn't so now my anxiety is twice as bad and I use heavy drugs everyday I'm sick almost everyday from not being able to afford to pay for my drugs, I am a Christian since I was a kid the Bible said that Jesus loves me for the Bible tells me so I do believe in him and God but it's been 41 years of hell now I mean everything has fallen into a pile of pain , humiliation,stress, hurting, being beaten up, being sick, people making fun of me and I don't understand it never ends I've prayed everyday for 20 years ceaselessly honestly pretty much I want a good life so much I would do anything but I can't get there on my own , a few years ago I recieved a prophecy promise that I will own everything one day and I'll be protected forever and I'll have everlasting good life forever and I'll be the one king that gets it and keeps it forever. It's just I need help all the time with prayer I'm always being ripped off or threatened or being made fun of and I'm scared all the time that someone might try to best me up because I'm weak and I'm nice and I can't have that happen it would kill me it's like a pride thing I'm very strong inside and out but my anxiety and the rat label that causes it make me weak it hurts me and scares me everyday even when people joke or play fight I can't take the fear , people have been getting away with treating me like dirt for over 20 years because I'm scared and weak all the time and people yell at me and boss me around for fun. It kills me I try my best to pray as hard as I can to be protected and be healed I hate living in fear all the time alot of people are very ignorant and find it fun to pick on weak kids or people and it drives me crazy. I can't have a girlfriend because I can't stick up for myself either and the one girl I fell in love with tore my heart out and humiliated and hurt the living shit out of me for no reason for 3 years straight I thought she was sent from the devil it was disgusting she'd make out with bigger guys right in front of me for no reason. Everything in my life has went wrong my mom and family hate me and play mind games with me there love is grossly very thin they give me 20 bucks here and there but I think they do it just to keep me around so they can hurt me again there very bad people and they don't like me or love me or treat me good at all I pray for them nonstop and same with the people I live around I know it helps them but there always rude they never change. I really want to meet a real Christian person I love Christians even though I'm not sure about or I have my doubts about pieces of the Bible. I really need prayer from dedicated Christian prayer warriors they don't have to be Christians that pray for me just anyone that would love to see me healed or doing better I'm just asking anyone at all to pray for me or do anything you can do so I reach my prophecy promise and have a happy life one day and get away from these people who drag me down .I need help all the time to be protected forever and to have all my prayers answered and all my needs met ,to get away from people that drag me down and hurt me and to win so I can have a happy fun filled life and be that king that was promised to me. I know it sounds far off for me to own everything in a promise but it's true I have one but I really need anyone or anything to be praying for me ceaselessly all the time to help me or doing anything they can to help me I believe in everything so anything would work as long as it helps I just need all the help I can get especially to get my prayers answered and be healed and healthy and protected and loved again please help me and spread the word if you could love me enough to pray for me ceaselessly like the Bible says I will do the same for you so your prayers are answered and so you can be blessed for doing anything that might help me but all I know is prayer and I know and believe it works I guess I try to believe it anyway if you can help me anyone please let me know I want to be healed and have a good life and know what it's like to love my life again or if I ever did. Please love me enough to help me get my life together I'm tired of fighting demons and being sick all the time. And afraid and weak and I feel controlled. If I could ask you to remember me in prayer untill I get a break through and to pass on the news to anyone who might want to help me I will pray for them in return all day long everyday as much as I can and please pray I will have everything mentioned in that promise to me so I can love my life again and to run things my way and be healed all the way through and to be strong and do things my way only and love my life again thank you. I want to try to get enough people praying that today will be the last day I need to suffer . Please help me I'm begging you to help to set me free thank you very much and bless you. From: your friend Curtis Steele And please pray that my charges get thrown out and I don't go to jail and that I can pay all my bills and take care of myself properly and have my miricle machine working or have a miracle or miricles if I need them to turn my life around thank you I literally hate everyday of my life so please pray for me as much as possible and please don't forget about me or give up and I'll do the same for you please I really need a new life I hate everything in my life everyday and I just want to see a miracle take it all away thank you