Skarrineth
Disciple of Prayer
I ruined my life once I can't again please lord please I need some serious prayers and maybe encouraging words about God and my faith. I pray to my divine the almighty my savior my heart ♥ my higher power. Is Christianity the correct choice though? Who struggled with it before? How can we actually be sure of it and what if we have a hard time reading the bible or believing everything's rught and accurate in it
It's a history thing
His Story = history it's been changed so many times in how many years?! Endless years. I know people will say he's in my heart and tell what I should do or know.. Try just praying about it anyway all those obvious options I've heard all my life that's pretty easy to figure out! I'm 31 and I have struggled with being with the right higher power. I've more then anything been spiritual and I define believe and know factually there is a Divine and savior, a creator. I've watched my prayers aansered before my eyes and know I have. Someone ony side that helps me but also I've seen evil right there battling if or idk what or why but the higher power can't always stop evil from winning my battle I don't know why. Maybe it's on me. That's that
Sims stuff you'd never get what I mean but it's more then we can grasp... I have struggled with horrid mental health issues all my life since 9 yr old. Meds and all the other crap out there imagine 27 years straight on meds. In therapy. Doing tms. Ketamine and finally. Doing drugs was the only thing that helped atleast enough not to lose it or. Kill myself. I'm at the hands of addiction again right now I can't do it I can't stop tho!!! I need more then just advice saying go get help. I can't do that right now I have a home a family. To care for now!!!! Not just some kid who can give up my life temporarily at the moment I need to go to rehab
I'm in deep with a court program I've skipped on for a break 2 months and made lies up the whole time well it's coming to an end my PO is going to say screw it if I don't have proof of what I've been doing. I only have a little bit of truth to what I told him. Now what hail?? Lose my car?? Lose my home?? All this stuff is possible and it's taking turns I can't handle!!! I'm so s aged and angry with myself soon as I stop my bf persuaded me into using so that he Caan too. But I can't just jump away from that either!! I care for him his neuro health declined few years ago he's not all the way there now he. Needs care I'm not even good enough to handle but he refuses to get help if I leave, he just let's himself get so. Bad off he'll live in a box before doing that stuff embarrassing to him, he doesn't know how to live alone anymore. So I'll prob be here til that ends too so I need strength to stop this madness please pray for me and lift my divine Fri. The shadows and kill this addiction from inside out it's taking everything's I've earned and fought so hard to have be the person I am. Today. I had 18 months clean and in May we messed up. And now. It's off on off on but nwe can't just get better. We've taken tons of steps towards it but the addict in me is so strong nothing helps it for long at all. Yes I see doctors duh read this prayer req again and you'll see how long I've been treated for my mental. Obviously I tried everything over the years to end my addiction but why can't it stay away?!!! I tried all options medicine and MAT wise for it too on top of it. You don't know. I've tried every last thing you could suggest to me. Now I just need ways to get thru this and ultimately get passed this before my life is taken from me and I'm left to rot. I won't survive this
I'll end up taking my own please understand me the pain is too much ivee got no support or friends so don't try that either. Here is my last resort p.. Sorry I'm typing fast and frantic I need help from prayer and clarifying my faith if anyone out there can simply understand this Msg is a cry for the almighty and praying for prayer to work. I know it has but the evil is stronger now. It's had time to strengthen.. I haven't done enough to fight it now. Help.
It's a history thing
His Story = history it's been changed so many times in how many years?! Endless years. I know people will say he's in my heart and tell what I should do or know.. Try just praying about it anyway all those obvious options I've heard all my life that's pretty easy to figure out! I'm 31 and I have struggled with being with the right higher power. I've more then anything been spiritual and I define believe and know factually there is a Divine and savior, a creator. I've watched my prayers aansered before my eyes and know I have. Someone ony side that helps me but also I've seen evil right there battling if or idk what or why but the higher power can't always stop evil from winning my battle I don't know why. Maybe it's on me. That's that
Sims stuff you'd never get what I mean but it's more then we can grasp... I have struggled with horrid mental health issues all my life since 9 yr old. Meds and all the other crap out there imagine 27 years straight on meds. In therapy. Doing tms. Ketamine and finally. Doing drugs was the only thing that helped atleast enough not to lose it or. Kill myself. I'm at the hands of addiction again right now I can't do it I can't stop tho!!! I need more then just advice saying go get help. I can't do that right now I have a home a family. To care for now!!!! Not just some kid who can give up my life temporarily at the moment I need to go to rehab
I'm in deep with a court program I've skipped on for a break 2 months and made lies up the whole time well it's coming to an end my PO is going to say screw it if I don't have proof of what I've been doing. I only have a little bit of truth to what I told him. Now what hail?? Lose my car?? Lose my home?? All this stuff is possible and it's taking turns I can't handle!!! I'm so s aged and angry with myself soon as I stop my bf persuaded me into using so that he Caan too. But I can't just jump away from that either!! I care for him his neuro health declined few years ago he's not all the way there now he. Needs care I'm not even good enough to handle but he refuses to get help if I leave, he just let's himself get so. Bad off he'll live in a box before doing that stuff embarrassing to him, he doesn't know how to live alone anymore. So I'll prob be here til that ends too so I need strength to stop this madness please pray for me and lift my divine Fri. The shadows and kill this addiction from inside out it's taking everything's I've earned and fought so hard to have be the person I am. Today. I had 18 months clean and in May we messed up. And now. It's off on off on but nwe can't just get better. We've taken tons of steps towards it but the addict in me is so strong nothing helps it for long at all. Yes I see doctors duh read this prayer req again and you'll see how long I've been treated for my mental. Obviously I tried everything over the years to end my addiction but why can't it stay away?!!! I tried all options medicine and MAT wise for it too on top of it. You don't know. I've tried every last thing you could suggest to me. Now I just need ways to get thru this and ultimately get passed this before my life is taken from me and I'm left to rot. I won't survive this
I'll end up taking my own please understand me the pain is too much ivee got no support or friends so don't try that either. Here is my last resort p.. Sorry I'm typing fast and frantic I need help from prayer and clarifying my faith if anyone out there can simply understand this Msg is a cry for the almighty and praying for prayer to work. I know it has but the evil is stronger now. It's had time to strengthen.. I haven't done enough to fight it now. Help.