Lludemsen
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray God would have mercy on my soul. I can't take the fact that God loves everyone else but me and answers everyone else's prayers but mine and heals everyone else but me. I've prayed 20 years to be rid of depression and I'm ignored. I get no response, no comfort. I desperately want to encounter God and be reborn. I can't figure out how to surrender. I ask God for clarity on that and the bible and I get no response. I'm frustrated to the point of taking my life. I feel like God made me to hurt me and send me to hell and never meant to save me. Why would He do that when all I did was love Him? Why would hurt me? Why? What did I do at such a young age to make Him so angry with me to give me a burden that is unbearable? Why does God hurt me? Why does He like to see me cry and suffer? Why won't He heal me? I'm on the verge of killing myself and knowing God intentionally chooses to let me continue to suffer isn't helping.
