Lludemsen
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray God would come to me and heal my heart despite me not knowing how to surrender. Please pray God would see my willingness to change and take that as consent. Please pray God would answer this prayer and not ignore me and my prayers. I've prayed the past 20 years and never got consolation or a response and I am starting to think God made me to hurt me. This is making me feel so hopeless it is really pushing me closer to suicide than I've ever been. I'm seriously thinking about it knowing all my tears and love for Him is worthless to Him and in vain. I won't last another day if I continue to feel this bad. Please pray mercy for my soul if I do end up taking my life.