Tlynne44
Disciple of Prayer
PLS PRAY FOR Me and my family. I have had Fibromyalgia for over 20 years. It has completely destroyed my life and has progressively gotten so bad, I rarely am able to go out or do anything. I had a great career and I wanted to provide for my children and hopefully have more then I did as a kid. However, my ex husband is bipolar and has a drinking problem. Those 2 mixed made for a very scary environment for my children and I. I am truly blessed to have my mom, who ID LOVE for yall to pray for as well, b/c she has helped me so much and just emotionally, I don't know how I would've gotten through it. She was diagnosed with a BRAIN TUMOR when I was pregnant with my second child. Its a long story but God has blessed her in that its "inactive" so PLS pray it stays inactive or disappears. Shes almost lost all of her healing and is having trouble with her memory and her eyes. IM very worried b/c she over does it. Another HUGE blessing was I was granted disability but only for 3 years for a review. Well, its review time and its taking forever and Im very concerned. I have dealt with Drs discrimination b/c they automatically think your a hypochondriac, drug addict or whatever bc im overweight (not from eating to much but from Hypothyroidism & need a DR!), disabled and on pain meds. And let me make this clear, NOT ALL PEOPLE WHO ARE IN PAIN, get addicted. People who abuse it have now made it practically impossible to get for people who are in true SEVERE PAIN EVERY SINGLE SEC OF EVERY SINGLE DAY. It doesn't make me high at all. I just get some relief from the pain. If they take that too, which sounds like they are, I will prob end up killing myself b/c I cannot live in this kind of pain with no relief. And I'VE tried everything! The only one that has truly helped is my pain meds. My disability is invisible b/c its MUSCLE pain which u can't see on an MRI or Xray. BUt Muscles are EVERYWHERE which means I hurt literally EVERYWHERE. U barely touch me and I jump. Its called Allodynia. People also like to compare you to someone else that has Fibromyalgia which you CANNOT do. I also have major financial trouble and Bankruptcy seems only choice I have and add all the issues my children have (add/adhd, ocd,body dysmorphia, sensory processing disorder),and the fact their dad doesn't do ANYTHING but get them 4 nights a MONTH, and its absolutely causing me HUGE amounts of stress and in turn, causing me to be in SEVERE PAIN. I absolutely cannot work. I tried going part-time but its just not possible. I can only describe it as feeling like u have the flu, only body pain is much worse and your not vomiting like crazy. My muscles are SO TIGHT, I can't even move. If I could work, I would! I owe over $20,0000 student loans for a degree I cant use. I cant shop, travel, work or just live a normal life.WHen I get on FB, I get depressed b/c all of the pics of everyone enjoying life. I feel so Sorry for my children too. And I can't get my student loans forgiven b/c I wasn't declared TOTALLY AND PERMANENTLY DISABLED. I have to review every 3 yrs so that is why I am still having to pay all that interest and money for loans that were pointless. I had a great job in Human Resources but then started getting really horrible back pain and it just went downhill gradually until my 30s and it got much worse much quicker. So, PLEASE PRAY I will be granted disability and they don't take it from me. Please pray we will be ok financially. Please pray for healing. But if I can't be healed, PLEASE PRAY FOR DISABILITY APPROVAL. And PLEASE PRAY for my MOM, BONNIE PUGH, AND MY CHILDREN, TYLER AND HANNAH WALDRON, to be healthy and safe above everything else. Thank you for listening and for prayers! GOD BLESS!!