Let's lift up Smilee for relief from leg pain and a restful night's sleep. "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak" (Isa 40:29). Trusting Jesus for complete healing and a swift return to work. In Jesus' name! 
Let's lift up 
Maboisha
Prayer Partner
I know I've posted 4 other prayer requests over the last couple weeks about this, but I still need prayers. For months, the man I'm in love with has given me every indication that he likes (maybe even loves) me too! All of the sudden, the last week or so (immediately following a few days of him posting several things online that highly imply he's in love with me), he's stopped loving (or even liking) my comments on his posts, posting things about me, or responding to me in any way. I didn't do anything that could've made him upset, other than miss a Live video recently, which he knows I wanted to attend but he accidentally advertised it for the wrong day & there was a glitch where I didn't get notified about it. I worry a lot (& have all along, but more so now) that I've done too much on social media (loving or haha-ing every single post he's made & commenting on most) & maybe at the same time, the comments I've made are too generic. He's a performer & primarily uses his page (as opposed to his personal profile - which I am friends with & do also interact with) to interact on social media, even with close friends & family, so I'm concerned that he might think I don't actually like him that way but rather, I'm just an obsessed fan, which is the last thing I want him to think! Yes, I'm a big fan of his work, but I'm a much bigger fan of his personality, the many things we have in common, his incredible sense of humor, the conversations we've had, the few but incredible times we've gotten to hang out in person, the amazing connection we clearly have, his beautiful eyes, & mostly, the amazing, kind, loving, respectful Christian man he is! Ever since we have met, our connection has been clear to others, both online & in person. My mom noticed immediately, some of his friends have reached out to me on social media, & you should've seen the way his friends looked at us last time we saw each other in person (as if each one of them could see something very special between us)! I'm so confused as to why he's suddenly acting differently! He is known to be in his head, get nervous, & feel self-conscious about things, so it's very possible he's overthinking things (which I've been quite guilty of as well) & is worried he read it wrong initially & I'm just a crazy fan instead of a woman that's genuinely in love with him. Also, he genuinely doesn't believe he's nearly as talented or handsome as he is, so he might think a nice woman that he likes wouldn't like him back. Maybe I need to comment on fewer posts but make the comments sweeter & more personal & flirty? Maybe I need to ask a friend to ask him what's going on? I've been praying so hard about this & ask that you join me in my prayers for wisdom & guidance on what to & not to do, patience while I wait for an answer, courage to reach out in ways that may be needed but make me uncomfortable, strength to handle it if he's not the one, & peace (both for the long run & for now, as I've been constantly feeling like I'm having a heart attack, my face is breaking out, & I've been in a constant state of unease). I know God's plan & His timing are better than mine! I know that I'm going through this for a reason! (Maybe this is to strengthen the relationship I have with this man. Maybe it's to prepare my heart for a different relationship. Maybe it's to teach me greater patience. So many possibilities!) I also know that I'll be ok in the long run if he's not the one God has for me because God will always do what's best for me & if this man isn't for me, I can't even possibly imagine someone even better for me! Wow! This man is everything I've ever wanted or needed to a t & more! Nobody's perfect but he's perfect for me & to me! I've seen flaws in him, yet I find them endearing & still view him as perfect in my eyes! I've felt things these last few months that I've never even imagined before! Like, I've always said I could never be with someone who doesn't live in my home town or the place I've always wanted to move to, but the day I met him, I immediately got excited about moving to his hometown if we end up together & had this overwhelming feeling that I'd happily move to the ends of the earth to be with him! I always said I could never be with another only child because I want siblings (in-law) & I want my children to have cousins, but with him, I only found myself thinking, "Aw! How sweet! We have something else in common!" I've known other types of love & have imagined romantic love to be intense but, wow, each & every feeling is more intense than I could've ever imagined! I would give up everything in a heartbeat to make him happy or keep him safe! It physically hurts how much I love this man! If I have to let him go, I will, even though it will hurt like nothing else, because God's plan is greater than mine & I want what's best for both of us, especially him! I do pray that he is the one & that either way, I will get the clarity I need soon before I have a heart attack or stroke or something!
