Ravindi
Disciple of Prayer
I've been suffering from depression for a long time now, i used to self harm because I couldn't cope with the pain, but i wouldn't even dream of harming someone else. I got into a proposed relationship, and it seemed like he was the one God sent me, because he accepted me for who i was, and showed me that i was worth so much and deserved to be loved. But last week i got to face the bitter reality that it was all a show in my face. Behind my back, he was spreading rumours about me to his parents, his relatives, cousins, pastors and everyone he knew of that i was crazy as if i should be in the mental asylum. And his parents were being so rude to my family saying they hid my illnesses trying to get me married to their son, when in reality i have been honest with him from the beginning. He has never told his toxic behaviours or wrongdoings which made me self harm, or get angry. Instead he has told everyone like i was a complete psycho getting angry for no reason and harming myself out of anger, when in reality i was in a lot of pain, forgiving him for all he does and not even telling anyone about his wrongdoings. Last week when my family told me how he's been spreading rumours saying I'm possessed by an evil spirit, and im crazy and all these things i got so hurt because ive loved him for 1½ years despite all we've been through, and the worst is he pretended he loved me so much and that i could trust him. Im still hurting deep inside so much, i pray everyday but yet i keep thinking what if's and how i would ever find the partner who would love me truly, because i never even hang out with much people cuz I'm a complete introvert. I would greatly appreciate if anyone could truly wholeheartedly pray for my emotional and mental healing, to forget all these hurtful memories and that God would send me the person he has chosen for me to get rid of all this loneliness.