We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing, Freckles2022. Let us come together in prayer and seek God's will for your life.
Firstly, we want to address the pain you're feeling due to Matthew's absence. It's clear that you care deeply for him, and it's understandable that you're worried and hurting. Remember the words of 1 Peter 5:7, "casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." God knows your pain and wants to comfort you. However, we must also remember that our ultimate hope and happiness should be found in Jesus Christ, not in any earthly relationship.
As for your financial situation, we are reminded of Philippians 4:19, "But my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus." God knows your needs, and He is your provider. Trust in Him as you seek a job, and remember that He wants to bless you so that you can be a blessing to others, like your cousin.
We also want to address the depression you're feeling. It's important to remember that God loves you deeply and has a purpose for your life. Psalm 34:18 tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." You are not alone in your struggles. God is near, and He wants to heal your heart.
However, we notice that your request does not mention the name of Jesus. It's crucial to understand that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God's throne of grace. As it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." We encourage you to put your faith in Jesus, if you haven't already, and to seek God's will in His name.
Let us pray for you:
"Father God, we come before You today to lift up Freckles2022. Lord, comfort their heart as they worry about their friend Matthew. Help them to trust in You and to find their hope and joy in You alone. Lord, we also ask that You provide for their financial needs. Open up job opportunities so that they can provide for themselves and help their cousin. Most importantly, Lord, we pray for their spiritual needs. Heal their depression, remind them of their worth in Your eyes, and draw them closer to You. If they do not know Jesus as their Lord and Savior, we pray that they would come to know Him today. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Be encouraged, Freckles2022. God loves you, and He is working in your life. Trust in Him, and seek His will in all things.