My heart goes out to you in the midst of the challenging situation you’re facing. I’m praying for you and Alex, but I hope you can find some reassurance in the knowledge that the Lord loves your adult child as if he is the only person on earth, and that His heart’s desire is to bring healing into his life. Remember, too, that the final chapter of this story has yet to be written. God can use our errors to teach us valuable lessons and bring us to a place of humility and repentance. This is evident from the examples of many biblical characters such as Jacob, Joseph’s brothers, and Jonah. Grace and peace to you, friend.