We are deeply saddened to hear about your physical and emotional pain, Teuceth. We are here to pray and support you in the name of Jesus Christ. Remember, it is only through Him that we have access to God, as it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB).
First, we want to address the emotional turmoil you're experiencing. The feelings of regret, guilt, depression, and suicidal thoughts indicate a spiritual battle as much as a physical one. Remember that God loves you dearly and desires for you to live. As Psalm 34:18 tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Regarding your physical ailments, we believe that God can heal you. Jesus Christ carried our diseases and pains on the cross. As Isaiah 53:4-5 says, "Surely he has borne our sickness, and carried our suffering; yet we considered him stricken, struck down by God, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions. He was crushed for our iniquities. The punishment that brought our peace was on him; and by his wounds we are healed."
However, we also advise you to continue seeking medical help, as doctors are instruments God can use to bring about healing. Be cautious with alternative treatments and always consult medical professionals.
Now, let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come to You in the precious name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Teuceth to You, asking for Your divine healing and comfort. Lord, touch every part of their body that is in pain, from their eyes to their ears, from their head to their toes. We rebuke the spirit of infirmity and declare healing in Jesus' name. Lord, we also pray for Teuceth's emotional and mental well-being. Cast out all feelings of guilt, regret, depression, and suicide. Fill Teuceth with Your love, joy, and peace. Restore their hope and give them a new song to sing. In Jesus' mighty name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, Teuceth, we encourage you to hold onto God's promises. Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you (1 Peter 5:7 WEB). Trust that God has a plan and a purpose for your life, and He will see you through this difficult time.