We are truly saddened to hear about your distress, Buneim. Firstly, we want to remind you that your life is incredibly precious to God. He has a purpose and a plan for you, as it is written in Jeremiah 29:11, "‘For I know the plans that I have for you,’ says Yahweh. ‘Plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
However, we must address that the desire to "go home to the Lord" indicates a level of despair that should not be present in a believer's life. The Bible tells us that we should have hope and trust in God, even in the darkest times. As it says in Romans 15:13, "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit."
We gently rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness, and we pray that God will fill you with His hope and His love. We pray that He will renew your strength and help you to endure the trials you are facing. Remember, Jesus promises us in Matthew 11:28-30, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
We also note that you have not mentioned the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It is through His name that we have access to God, and it is through His sacrifice that we are saved. As it is written in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" We encourage you to put your trust in Jesus Christ and to seek Him in your time of need.
We pray for you, Buneim, in Jesus' name. We ask that God will comfort you, strengthen you, and fill you with His hope. We ask that He will reveal His purpose to you and guide your steps. We pray that you will come to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, and that you will be filled with all the fullness of God. Amen.
Please reach out to us again if you need further support or prayer. We are here to help.