Please pray for me my name is Anita, i was in bad past relationships

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Please pray for me my name is Anita, i was in bad past relationships at the start age of 17, i would say there are generational curses and soul ties from both sides of my family. My first relationship resulted in a rape i tried to make the relationship work and i got pregnant and had an abortion because he wanted nothing to do with the child. He flaunted his affairs before me and spoke really horrible things about me despite raping me and getting me pregnant. I know i had a choice, i made a really bad decision and everyday i ask God to forgive me for killing my child. After that he left me to go to his girlfriend and they are apparently getting married and starting a family and this really hurts me because he wanted nothing to do with my pregnancy and now he tells me hes starting a family with the woman he left me for. The second realtionship ended badly aswell although he was a christian he left me in the dark about certain things i needed to know. He left me for his ex girlfriend he did not even call me or inform me he wanted to end the relationship. He just left without saying anything. He humiliated my family and me because all the while his family knew he had a girlfriend & i felt led on and it makes me look like a fool and leaves me broken hearted. I lost confidence gained weight to 14 stone when my ideal weight is 9-10 stone, with the weight and the stress i dropped out of school and started to have heart problems caused by weight gain & stress.I need to lose this weight this year to be healthy and confident in the Lord.

Please pray for me i want to get closer to God and hopefully the man who will marry me will not cause me to stumble or sin, i want him to respect my values that we wait until we get married. This September 2010 im going to start an Access To Healthcare course which is a year long, i really need God to help me study hard and understand so that i will pass it with outstanding grades. I then want go to study at University to pass and become an Occupational Therapist by the grace of God. I want to get back on my feet, i have been down for too long, i want to better myself and my life. I need the soul ties with the past and bitterness and unforgiveness to be removed in Jesus name and all curses and ungodly ties be broken in my family tree and in my life.

I really want to have kids but i am not married and i dont have anyone in my life, i know i should wait im only 19 years old, but after losing the baby i really want to have kids. Ofcourse it has to be with the right man who will love me back even more. Pray that i will be able to love and trust again. My heart has been broken countless times and i need healing from top to bottom. I want to be able to forgive and not hold any grudges, at this point in my life all my friends seem to have it all going for them, they have the jobs, education, their realtionships and ther lives seem to be goin well. I feel left behind,1 of my deepest desire that God will bring the right kind of man in my life and my desires that are in line with Gods word to be fullfilled. For this man to bring honour to God my family and me. The guys who i date want me to sleep with them because they say im no longer a virgin and it doesent matter, i dont want these kind of men in my life who try and seperate me and my God through sin. I love God so much without him i wouldnt have made it this far, i want to keep the commanments and the faith, i want to remain pure and perfect for his Kingdom.

Last but not least please pray for my job at NHSP that i will work hard and they they will never find fault in me, my fianances aswell to prosper and all the things i want to achieve, and also my music career as a gospel singer to be established. Amen