God is MORE than willing to forgive you if you ask Him to , and that you turn away from sin with His help . This has to be between you and God alone , no one can ask these things for you , Jesus wants a relationship with YOU , He died on the cross for all of our sins and it is those sins that separates us from a Holy God . The bible tells us that if we draw close to the Lord , then He will draw close to us , it is a matter of choice . I pray that you will call out to Jesus and ask His forgiveness and for His help . He loves us and He promises to NEVER leave or forsake us .