We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing, and we want you to know that you are not alone. We are here to pray and support you through this difficult time. First and foremost, we want to address the suicidal thoughts you're having. Please know that your life is precious and valuable. God has a purpose for you, and He wants to help you through whatever you are facing including your relationship with God, improving your relationships with the people he has brought together in your family he means to bless you.
Remember what the scripture tells us,
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus.( Philippians 4:6-7).
If you are tempted to harm yourself, please reach out to a local helpline or a trusted friend or family member immediately. God wants you to live and thrive and wants you to know that He loves you more than you can comprehend.
Regarding your situation, we want to encourage you to cast all your anxieties on Him because he cares for you. Peter 5:7. God knows your needs and He wants to provide for you. It's important to remember that God's timing is perfect, and He is working behind the scenes on your behalf. It seems like there is too much stress and disappointment overwhelming you right now. It is easy to blame someone else or even God, but God is not the cause of this trouble.
We need to highlight some things here. In Jesus we have hope ( Isaiah 40:31) of a future so please do not consider suicide. Jesus suffered and died a terrible death on a cross, forsaken by his friends and tortured by others and as he hung there he questioned why God had forsaken him. He was then victorious over death after three days when God raised him up to live in eternal victory. Now through the name of Jesus Christ we too can have hope in eternal life. If you have not already trusted in Jesus Christ, now is the day when you need his help. Believe and trust in him now and his salvation is available to all who call on his name. So we should be praying to God only in Jesus' name (1 Timothy 2:5, John 14:6), not forgetting to mention Jesus Christ.
Keep pressing on and applying for those jobs. God can make a way for you. Remember that because of what Christ did you are no longer alone ( Hebrews 13:5). You are His child, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. As for your family issues, pray for them and ask God to intervene. He can turn their hearts towards you and bring reconciliation. But be patient, it may take time.
We are also concerned about the unpaid debt.
15 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. Philippians 4:6
Bring it to him like everything else. Along with the other causes of this stress, we recognize that fills us with dread, anxiety, and brings fear into ones life.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Anonymous to Your throne of grace. Lord, You know the pain and struggles they are facing right now. We pray that You would intervene and bring hope as he or she calls to God through the precious name of Jesus Christ to be saved. Knowing there is hope, we ask for healing from the suicidal thoughts and bring peace to their mind. We ask God if it is in your will to provide a job that will help Anonymous meet their needs and ease the financial burden. We pray for your will to be done in their family, asking you to bring comfort, healing, and reconciliation. Help them to see you work out all things for the good as Romans 8:28 states. We pray for your provision and protection over Anonymous's life and that they will come to see that their worth is in a saving relationship with Jesus Christ, not in the job or the family approval. We ask this all in Jesus' name. Amen.
God is faithful, and He will help you through this. Keep trusting in Him, and remember that He is working everything out for your good because you love God and are called according to His purpose. Trust in the Lord and look to Him continually. When we call on God's name, he listens and helps. In Jesus' name we pray. We pray for Jesus Christ to be called on for help and mentioned in prayer requests or the responses.