Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please pray for me I can't breathe now. Please also pray that I can move away from a toxic brother. He has tortured me and stripped all my life away. I feel trapped and scared all the time. I just want to move away so bad if I have a good income I could leave. Please pray that I can leave please that a miracle can happen. It's obvious he doesn't want to change he's literally almost 30 years old. I can't get any peace and he will started torturing me even when I'm sleep. Then he will try to manipulate and tell me that staying with him is better. He will say stuff like "you know life will not be as "easy" as you have here." Then he will say "Are you sure it's better here." He will constantly keep questioning me and trying to manipulate me to stay living with him. Everytime I have a chance to leave. I feel trapped,scared, and hopeless. I don't have any friends I can reach out to and I am scared. I can't even eat anymore because of him. I get no peace from him it's so bad I need to not be around him at all. He will even torture me today while I am sleeping and he is pushing me to the point of a heart attack it's really bad. I cannot breathe right now and I feel like it's because of him. It's amazing he cares about my grandmother that passed away from cancer more than me. It's like he doesn't care if anything I think he's trying to push me to die. Because I might have the same illness that my grandmother have and he doesn't care. He will say stuff like I am lying and doing stuff for attention. I can't believe I have been trapped living with this man for 10 years straight and I feel hopeless all the time. I tried so many things to get out and in so many ways and I can't leave. I'm scared and completely lost. It's so bad I will wander off walking out in the street and my mind is gone then I realize I am walking out. Other times I will walk down the stairs shaking almost falling barely to the point where I can't walk. I just don't understand how someone like me could still go through. I have been bullied at every school, every church, and every job. I get bullied at my job people saying racist stuff or talking about my hair or I will get called ugly. I'm losing my faith in God and don't know what to do. It's like I'm trapped living with my abuser and there is no way out. I want to leave and need to leave I feel trapped. I just can't take this and my brother doesn't seem to notice a limit he will keep pushing me until I break. I am scared I don't know what to do please pray please