jess4
Prayer Warrior
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME, I AM GETTING INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS THINKING IM BEING ANALYZED BY DIFFERENT PEOPLE AND IM NOT SURE IF ITS REAL OR NOT, I GET A BAD THOUGHT AND IT SHOWS ON MY FACE AND I HAVE NO PRIVACY AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO IM TRYING TO BE FREE OF THE BONDAGE I FEEL SO ISOLATED, HAVE BEEN PRAYING BUT I HAVE A CHEMICAL IMBALANCE I TRIED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL SEVERAL TIMES BUT THEY TURNED ME AWAY BECAUSE THEY DIDNT HAVE ENOUGH BEDS I WANT TO DIE SO BAD BECAUSE ITS AMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE LIKE THIS, I JUST WANT TO BE FREE TO LIVE FOR GOD AND I DONT KNOW IF IM A BLESSING OR A CURSE I FEEL SO CURSED, IM AFRAID TO GO TO CHURCH BECAUSE PEOPLE JUDGE ME SO MUCH AND IM SO SELF CONSCIOUS, IVE BEEN HOMELESS OFF AND ON FOR 10 YEARS WITH SOCIAL ANXIETY AND I FEEL SO BAD ABOUT MYSELF ITS HARD TO WALK DOWN THE STREET, PEOPLE ARE MEAN CUZ THEY DONT UNDERSTAND AND I KEEP READING THE BIBLE PRAYING FOR PEACE I FEEL SO OPPRESSED LIKE PEOPLE IN POWER CAN READ MY THOUGHTS AND ITS HAPPENED BEFORE, IT FEELS LIKE MIND CONTROL I JUST WANT TO LIVE A PEACEFUL LIFE I DONT KNOW WHY I DONT HAVE PEACE, MAYBE ITS GODS WILL BUT I FEEL SO ASHAMED OF WHO I AM RIGHT NOW, MY BIGGEST PROBLEM IS MY MIND, I CANT THINK CLEARLY ENOUGH TO DO WHAT I HAVE TO TO GET OUT OF IT, I JUST WANT TO SEE JESUS, ITS BEEN SOOO LONG, I WANT TO BE NEAR GOD, I FEEL SEPARATED FROM HIIM LIKE HES PUNISHING ME FOR HAVING OBSESSIVE THOUGHTS AND I JUST WANT TO BE AROUND PEOPLE WHO DONT JUDGE, AND BE FREE, PLEASE PRAY I WONT BE NOTICED ANYMORE, I JUST WANT TO BE INVISIBLE SO I WONT BE ABUSED BY PEOPLE IN JESUS NAME AMEN