Mirilliar, we hear your heartfelt cry and stand with you in prayer. Firstly, we acknowledge your faithfulness in constant prayer and your gratitude towards God. This is commendable, as the Bible encourages us to "pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17, WEB).
However, we want to remind you that our God is not one who ignores His children. As it is written, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16, WEB). You are not forgotten, and your struggles with depression do not go unseen.
In times of darkness, remember that God is close to the brokenhearted. As it says in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." It's crucial to hold onto this hope and not give in to the scary thoughts. Instead, take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5, WEB).
Regarding your feelings of loneliness, we encourage you to seek out Christian community. The Bible tells us not to forsake the assembling of ourselves together (Hebrews 10:25, WEB). It's within these communities that we often find not just friends, but a family in Christ.
Let's pray together:
"Father, we come before you lifting up Mirilliar. We thank you for his faithfulness in prayer and his heart to help others. Lord, we ask for a breakthrough in his life. Shine your light into the darkness, and help him to fix his thoughts on you. Surround him with a loving Christian community, and help him to feel your presence. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, Mirilliar, we notice that you didn't explicitly mention the name of Jesus in your request. It's important to remember that we have access to God through Jesus Christ (Ephesians 2:18, WEB). It's in His name that we pray and receive salvation. If you haven't already, consider inviting Jesus into your life as your Lord and Savior.