Jorunolth
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for me. Ever since I lost my father to cancer last Dec. 2013, my life has been nothing but a rollercoaster. A year after my dad passed, we were still grieving and picking up the pieces, my mother was also diagnosed with cancer. For 2 years, she fought the dreaded disease and I fought alongside her, dealing with the finances and everything else left in our lives. By the way, I am an only child, still single and we are not rich so just imagine the struggle my mother and I had to go through, especially my mother who was in pain and yet she was worrying about me while I was worried about her, too. Last 2017, my mother succumb to the disease which made me an orphan. Left alone, under a mountain of debt, I decided to end it all and follow my parents to the after life. But, as God planted seeds in my life through the people around, I was given new hope. I started to pull myself together, attended small group bible studies and started to gain confidence to move on with life without my parents. But it will not last for I was also diagnosed with the same dreaded illness 2 years after and had my surgery last 2019 - leaving me unable to bear a child. I haven't wed my fiance yet but now I can no longer give him children. But nonetheless, my faith remains and with the help of my fiance, I moved forward. Then, the pandemic happened, I literally stayed at home for more than a year to be safe but I still contracted Covid19. May of this year, I was admitted to the hospital due to critical condition and stayed for more than a month, 2.5 weeks in the ICU. Yet, I am grateful to my Lord and Savior for He kept me alive and made it possible for me to be able to pay the hospital bills that went up to as high as 2.8 Million. Except for my HMO which covered 100k of the bill and Philhealth, I didn't have any savings or cash with me. The rest of the bill was paid for by donations from relatives, friends, and even strangers. Praise God. It has been 6 months and I am still recovering. I am still under medication and oxygen support. But life's cruelty isn't done with me yet. Just days ago, my fiance and I lost our source of income - our livelihood. As of today, based on my forecast, we only have a month's worth of savings in order to survive. With that, I haven't been sleeping well, I have been getting sick, anxious, stressed and depressed. I always end up crying and getting weak. I do not know what to do, anymore. I want to continue to be strong but I am really struggling. Please help me.... please....