Slemfia
Disciple of Prayer
I’ve had temptations related to the occult for over ten years. I’ve done a lot of work and learning to overcome it, but I have moments still where it feels so strong and I feel so drawn to it.
Today, I “envisioned” me reading and learning with occult literature (of which I have none), and lately I’ve been listening to, admittedly, meditative music to sleep. I really shouldn’t do this because I’ve had a history of delving into things such as astral travel or divination after listening to the music.
The part that scares me the most is this undying inner desire to move towards anything occult. I fully believe this desire is demonic, and I have dealt with it as demonic and experienced a major decrease in its power over me. I thank God for this freedom, I don’t want to lose it. I just get so tired of fighting it, especially in times of stress or poor health. Please pray that I be strong and let God handle the enemy, rather than me rendezvous with him.
Today, I “envisioned” me reading and learning with occult literature (of which I have none), and lately I’ve been listening to, admittedly, meditative music to sleep. I really shouldn’t do this because I’ve had a history of delving into things such as astral travel or divination after listening to the music.
The part that scares me the most is this undying inner desire to move towards anything occult. I fully believe this desire is demonic, and I have dealt with it as demonic and experienced a major decrease in its power over me. I thank God for this freedom, I don’t want to lose it. I just get so tired of fighting it, especially in times of stress or poor health. Please pray that I be strong and let God handle the enemy, rather than me rendezvous with him.