Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please please pray for me I am a woman who has been addicted to porn for over 20 years, I am so so tired of being in bondage with this, I know this is very wrong and bad for my spirit, I think its because of loneliness, I haven't had a boyfriend and over 13 years and I can't seem to meet anybody but then again I am not really putting myself out there either. I either work and go home. I have really no friends, and the ones that I do are married or have a boyfriend so I can't relate since I am always the single friend. My friends say that I am a pretty woman but obvious men see something wrong with me, maybe they see that I am damaged goods I guess, I am beyond frustrated but I know that porn is definitely not the way to go. I really don't trust men since my father verbally and mentally abused me, and I had an uncle who would always disrespect and tickle me all the time, mind you I was a grown woman, so I really don't like people touching me at all. So I really don't know what men see when they look at me. I will be 41 this month and I am still single. I have always wanted to get married and have children but I don't know if that will ever happen. I suffer with tumors now in my uterus and the possibility of me having children now because of my age and sick uterus. I am so sad and unhappy. I don't know what to do with myself. I have prayed over the years for deliverance from pornography but no luck, every time I think I am delivered I go back to watching it and I feel so sick and ashamed. I also need pray to start forgiving those that have hurt me, I have also prayed on this but I am still angry about alot of stuff from my past life. I have no friends no love life and I hate my job. I thought by the time I reach my forties I would of been married and had some kids. Please pray for my deliverance... Thank you in advance...