Ainigmarma
Disciple of Prayer
Please may you pray for me and my future with or without this man, Nick. He is my ex and we reconnected a month ago as we were both clearly in love. I don't think Nick is aware of it but it is clear to me that he displays traits of a narcissist and self sabotages his relationships. For this past month he has been telling me he's in love with me and is waiting for me to be ready to commit to him again, which I was taking my time with cause I wanted to be certain that he was sure about me before committing and getting hurt again. A few days ago I found out he had traveled 400 miles to Edinburgh to explore a connection with another girl and had lied to me about the entire purpose of the trip. This left me feeling so betrayed and hurt and instead of reassuring me he is blaming me and refusing to meet up to talk about it. This goes against everything he's said and how he's been acting so devoted to me for this past month but now that he knows he's been caught out, he's avoiding me completely. He told me he's going to explore options with other people and for me to 'take it or leave it', which is something he never would've said because his feelings for me were so strong. I'm so confused as to whether he has genuinely wanted to explore things with other people since him and I reconnected, in which case why did he need to come back to me in the first place? I believe this is a narcissistic response to being caught/ perceived threat, and he is self sabotaging, hurting us both. Only God knows the full truth, but all I know is that I deeply love him, and if there is any hope left may you please pray for God to heal us both and humble Nick enough to fight for me and do what is right. But if we are to part ways for good, please pray for my strength because right now I am longing for him and I don't know how I'll live without him again. I trust God's perfect will and plan, but I really am suffering. <3