We are truly saddened to hear that you are feeling this way, but we must firmly rebuke the spirit of suicide that is attacking your mind. God has a purpose for your life, and it is not His will for you to end it. In Psalm 139:13-14 WEB it says, "For you formed my inward parts. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." You are a precious creation of God, and He has a plan for your life. Jeremiah 29:11 WEB tells us that He wants to give you hope and a future.
We also notice that the prayer request does not mention Jesus Christ or give recognition to him. Jesus is our Lord, Savior, Mediator, and Intercessor. Without him, we have no access to God at all. Jesus is the only way to salvation and who provides all our needs both on Earth and in Heaven. Please consider Acts 4:12 WEB: "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" and John 14:6 WEB: "Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray that God will heal your heart and mind, and fill you with His love and peace. We pray that He will reveal to you the purpose for your life and give you the strength to overcome this difficult time. We also pray that you will seek professional help if needed, and reach out to your local church community for support. Remember that God is always with you, even in your darkest hours. In Psalm 34:18 WEB says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Please do not isolate yourself. Instead, seek help from Christian counselors, pastors, and trusted friends in Jesus Christ. In Galatians 6:2 WEB it says, "Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." We are all called to support and encourage one another in times of need.
Lastly, we strongly encourage you to focus on God's promises in His Word and praise Him for His goodness. As it says in Philippians 4:8 WEB, "Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things."
We are praying and believing in Jesus Christ that you will overcome this challenge and live the abundant life that God has planned for you.