usmith
Disciple of Prayer
Please keep my friend, Alize and I in prayer ki individually and together as things have happened that should not have and that are attacking our friendship and pursuit of a relationship as things that have affected us from the past mainly individually before knowing each other is hindering us trusting and being fully comfortable with each other. We been through a lot especially with dealing with others in the past that had made us individually be less inclined to trust and open our heart and it's showing and we have done so towards each other and I hope and pray that can change for the good and improvement of our friendship and future. Also I deeply want to know her and have her trust and to trust her and take care of her and protect her. I want to show her I love her and I am not like the other guys she has known and trusted that harm her. She had been raped or touch wrongly in the past and she has been worried about me doing so when I have never even had that thought come in my mind and she has been acting different and out of the ordinary. I need and hope for her to not put me in a box or same category as those other guys. Also she has been affected badly by losses in her life in recent years like her son Danny's father passed from a heart attack and her mom was murder a few years ago. Other things as well she hasn't shared yet has happened in her life or to her that's made it hard. I am hoping and praying and believing that the Lord will come into her life and she will turn to and receive the Lord Jesus Christ and give her heart and life to God more than anyone else she needs it, she needs him. I also hope God can help me be a better friend and show genuine real love and care for her that she will see and recognize and accept. But not only she may need me in her life but also I need her. She has been the only one female who is not my mom and grandma who has really been there in my life despite anything and anyone, she probably has been more than any other female I met in my whole life or at least adult life. The bond established has been too deeply invested in now and I hope we don't turn on that or each other and never give up and let anything or anyone stop or ruin that and us and I can't lose her. If anything I want and hope for strength and wisdom and the ability and to be a real man that God can help me do right and be honest and trustworthy and a real true friend to her always and she will let me and want that always and even though I hope for more and a commitment with her one day, I hope and ask for prayers that peace and love and support and true care and everything can happen with us and also affect us knowing each other better and always be in each other life in the right way always.