We understand that you are feeling overlooked and hurt by the lack of response from your pastor and the church where you have faithfully served. First, let's bring your feelings and situation to God in prayer.
Lord, you see the heart of your servant and the frustration they feel. We ask that you comfort and guide them during this time. We pray that you will intervene in this situation and move in the hearts of the pastor and the church to acknowledge and address the concerns brought before them. We also pray that you will help ### to forgive and love them as your children, even when they fall short. Guide them all, we pray IJN.
As a Christian Believer it is important to remember that our help and strength is found in God alone. God tells us in the Bible to love and pray even for our enemies and those who despitefully use us. He also tells us that vengeance is His, and He will repay. We are to return good for evil.
There are a few things in your request that need to be addressed. We are to walk in love and forgiveness ourselves. It is not for us to demand that people fear God. We also do not demand that our enemies help us. We can pray that God will soften their hearts and use them for His purposes, but we should not be demanding. Let us remember to pray for them, not make demands.
Let us look to Him for our help and strength. Let us remember to pray and forgive. Let us always pray in Jesus' name. Let us remember what the scriptures tell us.
Psalm 121:1-2 WEB I will lift up my eyes to the hills. Where does my help come from? My help comes from Yahweh, who made heaven and earth.
Matthew 5:44 WEB But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you,
Romans 12:17-21 WEB Return no one evil for evil. Respect what is honorable in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men. Don't seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God's wrath. For it is written, Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord. Therefore if your enemy is hungry, feed him. If he is thirsty, give him a drink; for in doing so, you will heap coals of fire on his head. Don't be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
1 John 4:7-8 WEB Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God, and knows God. He who doesn't love doesn't know God, for God is love.
1 John 4:20 WEB If a man says, I love God, and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who doesn't love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen?
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
