Lawthirren
Disciple of Prayer
Please help me seek God and forgiveness, if I am worthy. I'm sorry and I need help. For the first time, God, I truly ask for you to come to me, please. I don't come from religion, but have always known there's a magic to the design of life. I have always had some spiritual connection with life but I have lost myself and worn away as time has gone on. With a troubled childhood, nothing has felt easy or normal since. My soul has felt depleted for many years now and unfortunately, now stand in a position I never thought I'd be in. Where I am the monster I refused to ever be. Hurting others, living without morals or any true value for life. It feels like I have been under a spell or bad dream that I can't shake. I know my actions and attitude towards life aren't who I am. In the last couple of years, I have had some undeniable experiences where I have truly felt God's presence, unexplainable to most but truly in my heart, undeniable. But despite how strong these experiences were, I have not changed; I believed they were enough, but I still feel like I'm under some illusion. My relationship isn't what it should be and I require a stronger connection. Please help me find God, if I'm worthy of him, I need to feel and know what I am, who I am. I need the guidance to be a real man, in all that it means to be. To be an immovable pillar of strength and character that lifts up and loves those around me. Please help me strengthen my connection and truly find God and his forgiveness. Thank you.