Lawthirren
Disciple of Prayer
Please help me seek God and forgiveness, if i am worthy. I'm sorry and I need help. For the first time God, I truly ask for you to come to me please. I don't come from religion, but have always known there's a magic to the design of life. I have always had some spiritual connection with life but I have lost my self and worn away as time has gone on. With a troubled childhood nothing has felt easy or normal since. My soul has felt depleted for many years now and unfortunately now stand in a position I never thought I'd be in. Where I am the monster I refused to ever be. Hurting others, living without morals or any true value for life. It feels like i have been under a spell or bad dream that I can't shake. I know my actions and attitude towards life isn't who I am. In the last couple of years i have had some undeniable experiences where I have truly felt God's presence, unexplainable to most but truly in my heart undeniable. But despite how strong these experiences were i have not changed i believed it were enough but i still feel like im under some illusion. My relationship isnt what it should be and i require a stronger connection. Please help me find God, if I'm worthy of him I need to feel and know what I am, who I am. I need the guidance to be a real man, in all that it means to be. To be a immovable pillar of strength and character that lifts up and loves those around me. Please help me strengthen my connection and truly find God and his forgiveness, Thank you