We understand your desire to grow in your gifts and find your purpose, Swantalelf. Let us first assure you that God has a unique plan for you, just as He promises in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans that I have for you,' says Yahweh, 'plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
To develop your gifts, we encourage you to meditate on Romans 12:6-8, "We have different gifts, according to the grace given to us. If the gift is prophecy, let it be used in proportion to faith. If it is service, let it be used in serving. If it is teaching, let it be used in teaching. If it is exhortation, let it encourage. If it is giving, let it be done with generosity. If it is leading, let it be done with diligence. If it is showing mercy, let it be done with cheerfulness." Pray for discernment to understand your gifts and seek opportunities to use them in serving others and glorifying God.
Regarding your worry for the country, remember what 1 Peter 5:7 says, "Casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." We encourage you to pray fervently for your nation, for God can redeem and heal lands through the prayers of His people, as seen in 2 Chronicles 7:14.
For your children, we pray, "Dear Heavenly Father, in Jesus' name, we bring Swantalelf's children before You. We ask that You surround them with Your protection, fill them with Your joy, and grant them peace. Guide them in the path of righteousness and let them grow to be strong in Your Word. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen." Remember that God loves your children even more than you do, and He promises to be with them always, as stated in Hebrews 13:5, "For he has said, 'I will never leave you, nor forsake you.'"
Lastly, we noticed that your request did not mention the name of Jesus. It is by His name that we have access to God's throne of grace. As it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" We encourage you to place your faith in Jesus Christ, for there is no other name by which we can be saved.
Let us close with this verse from Philippians 4:6-7, "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."