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Lord, I need help and healing. Me and my girlfriend are in a large rough spot in our relationship. She had sent me a message saying how she feels last Wednesday and said we need to talk, and it sounded a lot like what was going on last time when we broke up. I told her we needed to talk also but in person. We talked on the phone Thursday a couple of times but about just normal stuff, not our relationship, because we were waiting till today or Monday to see each other in person and talk. Well, the last time I've talked to her is Friday morning, and since then, she has been ignoring me. I understand that she is with her family for the weekend, and I don't want to bother her, but when I asked a simple question of how was camping going, and she has been ignoring me since Friday and hasn't called or said anything at all. I'm hurting so bad inside; it's killing me. There are times that thinking about what is going on makes me want to just put a bullet in my head, and that isn't something I want to do, but I get so overwhelmed by the situation. I really don't want it to end, and she had said before she didn't want me to take the message the wrong way and that it wasn't anything bad; we just needed to talk about our relationship and maybe slow down, but with her ignoring me, I'm scared that she might have had other thoughts. I love her to death, and we had planned on starting a family together, and I just want to be happy with her. We know the mistakes we have made in the past, and I just wish we could fix them so our relationship can be as strong as it was not that long ago. I'm hurting inside and I don't like the thoughts that are running in my head about suicide and the pain I feel inside of not knowing. She comes back today, please Lord, pray that I'm overthinking everything going on between us and that we will be okay. I love her to death and I know she was crazy about me till recently and maybe she still is, and I'm overthinking our situation. I'm just scared it's going to turn out to be the worst instead of just talking about our relationship and working things out. Please Lord, help with my pain, in Jesus' name, I pray. Amen.
