Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please help me by praying for me. I am overwhelmed right now. For those who sent prayers the last time, I am thankful for them. I mean it`s not like the conflicts and problems faded away but I became more resilient in order to face it. However, through your prayers, blessings and mercy came. I am really thankful for this community. Anyway, I don`t want to sound selfish but I really need prayers again, right now. After a resolved problem, another one came. I don`t know how to face it but I surrender it all to the Lord. I guess I just need comfort, help, and a safe space to say all of this. I feel like I`m a failure and that I am a terrible person to my family and friends. I just want to be better, I want to give them the best version I could be. Then I feel like I couldn`t do anything right. Things are slipping off from my hands. I am taking it one day at a time but I don`t feel like I am doing a good job. Then I have this professor who constantly degrades and shames his students and that includes me all because of a minor inconvenience. The other professor is only after his own welfare, not our learning. He only shows up when we have examinations and academic submissions. Then I feel like my friends and classmates see me as a failure and control freak. I don`t want to disappoint them because I care for them but I am really exhausted, my mind is distorted and anxious. I am combating with the thought of self-harm and remaing strong for my family. This is so hard. I really need prayers. I am in a desperate situation, I am clinging on to any miracle and help I could grab because I don`t know what to do. I surrender it all to the Lord but I am really in a deep case of despair right now. I am only human. I am weak. I need help and I admit it. This is spiritually draining and I am just looking for a way to face this with a little help.