Alypauid
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for great healing and restoration in my husband’s life and my own. There has been much damage, and I am concerned that my husband either doesn’t really experientially know the Lord nor truly surrendered to Him, or he has, but there is a stronghold that cannot be discerned… I can sense an increase in spiritual attack, and my husband has been cursing much more and speaks to me in a very demeaning way. Also, please pray I relinquish paranoia about who my husband may be speaking to (another woman, like many times in the past), or spending time with… I am greatly concerned for his soul… I am very weak in mind and even physically in my brain, and not properly assessing stimuli, and even though I should not base my value on what my husband thinks of me, it is so hard not to want his approval/respect/love, and not give into fear… fear of myself getting hurt, fear of my husband dying apart from Jesus. Pray for a breakthrough… this has gone on for so many years… recently some sin came to light, but my husband is focused on worldly things.., he did meet with my pastor a couple times, which he’s never done… pray that God does a great work in our lives, that we would speak of what He’s done and praise His name. Pray I hold onto Jesus… pray that the enemy no longer claimed him… pray for godly sorrow that brings repentance.. pray that Jehovah Rapha heals us!!! I am desperate for prayer and God to move to help and work!!!! We need His power!! We need the Holy Spirit to fill us! May the enemy no longer have reign… may God be glorified… may a soul be saved… may we hold firm until we are home with the Lord.
Update April 19, 2024—God is giving me strength to not freak out all the time around him…. My husband is constantly on his phone around me…. he is prioritizing his work, which is currently requiring a class (he is a firefighter medic, and currently training to work the hoses—“pump operations”)… he is greatly burdened because we are behind financially and I have chronic health issues that require medical treatment,and I am not able to work like I have… but it seems it is an excuse… peace pray that he is honest with the Lord and even our pastor who has reached out to him… I am at such a loss… part of me wants to see if he will choose to leave me and then I can work on getting over him, but deep down i long for God to make streams in the desert and do exceeding abundantly more than all we can ask or think… he has lied to me so much, I had no idea… but the Lord knows… please pray the Holy Spirit breaks through! That the blindness is removed! That he would desire to be faithful to the Lord and to me… that the Lord would have mercy on us… a miracle is needed. I don’t even know what to say… I am trying to remain obedient to God, and focus on 1 Peter 2 and 3…. I am still devastated and overwhelmed with all of this and life… pray I keep my eyes on Jesus… taking a moment at a time, going to the Lord to help me get through each moment
Update April 19, 2024—God is giving me strength to not freak out all the time around him…. My husband is constantly on his phone around me…. he is prioritizing his work, which is currently requiring a class (he is a firefighter medic, and currently training to work the hoses—“pump operations”)… he is greatly burdened because we are behind financially and I have chronic health issues that require medical treatment,and I am not able to work like I have… but it seems it is an excuse… peace pray that he is honest with the Lord and even our pastor who has reached out to him… I am at such a loss… part of me wants to see if he will choose to leave me and then I can work on getting over him, but deep down i long for God to make streams in the desert and do exceeding abundantly more than all we can ask or think… he has lied to me so much, I had no idea… but the Lord knows… please pray the Holy Spirit breaks through! That the blindness is removed! That he would desire to be faithful to the Lord and to me… that the Lord would have mercy on us… a miracle is needed. I don’t even know what to say… I am trying to remain obedient to God, and focus on 1 Peter 2 and 3…. I am still devastated and overwhelmed with all of this and life… pray I keep my eyes on Jesus… taking a moment at a time, going to the Lord to help me get through each moment