Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
Please pray for me. I feel COMPLETELY UTTERLY HOPELESS. I have been caring for my grandma who is very ill for years. I live with my mom who has Asperger's. I have diabetes since infancy and I feel so dry and I'm so tired of the suffering. The only thing the Lord cares about and my mother is cleaning, cleaning, serving, cleaning, serving. I am NOT well, I feel like even the Lord doesn't care, I think I should just commit suicide but I can't because my grandma needs me and I live with her. I cry out to the LORD all day, all night. I am never good enough. I JUST BEG THE LORD TO HELP WITH ALL MY HEART. I need a pair of glasses. I'm so depressed. Please, it's been decades since I have a friend. I know I am lowly and the Lord Jesus Christ hates me because I can't clean no matter how much I try. I'm tired of trying so hard. I just want to be loved, I just really really want to be loved so I have the strength to go on. People talk about the Love of God all the time. I wish to experience this. How much obedience does a person have to do for healing for love. Lord, why don't you love me? Why don't you love me?