Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
pleas epray fo rme i feel COMPELTLE UTTERLY HOPELESS. i hav ebeen cargiving fo r my grandma who is ver yill for years. i live wihtmy mom who has aspergers. i have diabete sinsipidus and i feel so dry and im so trie dof the suffering. the only thign the Lord care about and my mothe ris cleanign clenaign servign cleanign serving.. i am NOZT Well i feel liek even the Lord doenst care, i think i should jsut ocmmit suicide but i cant caus emy grandma needs me an d and i i live her l. i cr out tot he LOR ALL DAY ALL NIght. i am never goot enough. i JUST BEG THE LORD TO HELP WITH ALL MY HEARt . i need a pair of glasses.ims o depressed. please it been decades sinc ei have a firend.i know i am low scumb and the Lord Jeus Chirst hate sme caus ei cnat clean no matter how much i try. i m tired of trying so hard.i sut wantr o be loved i jsut really really want to be loved so ihave the strenght to go on. Peopel tlak about the Love of God all the time.i wish to expereince this. how mcuh obedience does a person have to do for helaign for love. LOrd hwy odnt oyu love me? why dotn oyu love me?